End of School 09

Three days left and I still don't know if Sharon will be back with me. I looked over my last year's post about our classes and realized we did exactly what we said we would. Same rules, same classrooms. It worked out great. Now we are sitting on a sea of uncertainty. I hate LAUSD for being so stupid in the way they have run the district these last years. Now we are all paying the price. Our school will not be the same for a long time. We have worked so hard for so long to get us where we are and it will probably not stick. There is too much division and uncertainty among the staff. I have been trusting in God to either make sure she stays or give us the direction he wants us to go. I have to let him lead me, even if it means losing Sharon to something else.

Reef Check CA

Well I got myself into another mess. I had to learn 77 flash cards of fish and seaweed. I thought I would never get it done and wanted to quit even before I started. It seemed as though I would never get it done. Connie of course wouldn't let me quit, "suck it up buttercup and start studying". I am so glad she did that because I really enjoyed the class and the diving. I have a whole new world opened up to me because of it. I'm the one who wanted to do it and then I almost wimped out. Should teach me to always lead with an open mind and who knows where it will take me. I almost passed all of the tests to be able to do the fish counts and I will with a little more practice. Now I want all my friends to do it with me. I guess I can't have everything at once.

Looking back on 2008/2009

It is interesting to me that I am looking back on the year with some regrets. I am not sure why, but I have not been able to do as much with this group of kids as I have done in past years. I think one of the reasons is that my coordinator told me I did too many field trips with last year's kids. Instead of appreciating the fact that I gave them a chance to do things for free she wanted me to do less. All of the trips I took the kids on were paid for by someone other than the school. When I was able to get a $25 price for Science Camp and she told me I couldn't take the kids on Oct, I think I gave up and allowed myself to not have the energy to continue this year. If indeed this is the case I need to take a hard look at my outlook on why I do what I do. Is it for me, or for the kids. If I didn't do as much this year for my own reasons I need to figure it out. I'm sure there is more than one reason for it and I need to pay attention to all of them.