Looking back on 2008/2009

It is interesting to me that I am looking back on the year with some regrets. I am not sure why, but I have not been able to do as much with this group of kids as I have done in past years. I think one of the reasons is that my coordinator told me I did too many field trips with last year's kids. Instead of appreciating the fact that I gave them a chance to do things for free she wanted me to do less. All of the trips I took the kids on were paid for by someone other than the school. When I was able to get a $25 price for Science Camp and she told me I couldn't take the kids on Oct, I think I gave up and allowed myself to not have the energy to continue this year. If indeed this is the case I need to take a hard look at my outlook on why I do what I do. Is it for me, or for the kids. If I didn't do as much this year for my own reasons I need to figure it out. I'm sure there is more than one reason for it and I need to pay attention to all of them.